where?

God i don't feel You
i'm sorry for turning away
for putting my flesh in Your place
for making You less
and my humanity so much more
please God, stop this punishment
show me Your face
grant me Your peace
Your comfort
Your holy presence
i'm searching for You
trying to move forward
help me, please
oh God, Your daughter needs You
my God, fill me.

strike.

determined to amend this apathy

to turn my thoughts into prayers

to change my being into joy

i want to put on the Armor

i want to take a stand

against my flesh

against my self

fed up with feeling numb

making an effort to grow closer

making the choice to move ahead

taking the steps rather than standing

still

still doing nothing

still letting my flame ember

still just planning

i will move.